Awakening the Muse – hopefully

Happy beautiful Sunday!!!

It reached 15 degrees Celsius here ūüėĄ

it was the perfect day for spring cleaning and airing out the house as I had every window open and enjoying the freshness of the new season! Spring allowed us to remove the staleness of winter from the house.

Unfortunately the Muse was quiet today perhaps to allow newness and the scent of renewal to prevail.  It is funny how once you start cleaning, organizing and sorting, it can become a process and a cathartic release. I found it be therapeutic giving my house a once over, fresh start and removing the negative, stale energy of a harsh winter.

I am attempting to kick start my creative juices by redoing the creative outlines of project!’ Hopefully it will bring forth the gift of the Muse and maybe breath life into the project with a renewed spark.

Standing Still While Moving Ahead

So I am at a stand still creatively – urg!! ūüė¶

Our weather fluctuating and dreary doesn’t help either as the last two days all I wanted do was sleep! ¬†We almost had most of snow gone in yard but now blowing snow and crazy wind – suppose to get 10 cm!’

I figured good time to try to de clutter house, hopefully it will help me shake cobwebs.  I started with kitchen and organized Tupperware but had to take break due to having a really bad chill and headache.

I set a goal for myself of at least the main floor being done – sorting wise too – keep, donate and garbage. I figure if I can make my house what I want it to be maybe the change will help me emotionally and mentally (concentration wise).

Trampled and Doubting

What a wierd day! ¬†I feel exhausted and drained even though it wasn’t a crazy and chaotic day! ¬†It was sunny but cold outside on the beginning of day and then became overcast.

Weather changes are killer on state of mind and add depression on top of that and I get burned out mentally and emotonally. ¬†Today I had a hard time concentrating and staying focused and all I wanted to do is sleep. ¬†pushed through morning and evening cliemts but feel like I haven’t slept in days and my body ¬†feels trampled on.

The physical symptoms of depression can be worse than the emotional ones somedays and for me they include:

1. Headaches

2. Fatigue

3. Lethargicness

4. Achy muscles

5. Insomnia

6. Stomach Upset

I try to combat the physical symptoms with vitamins and minerals; such as:

1. Vitamin D

2. Vitamin B12

3. Iron

4. Multivitamin

5. Vitamin C

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I have not had the opportunity or stamina to work on project today, which bothers me as a sense of failure and disappointment starts to overtake me.  I am feeling frustrated with myself and questioning whether I am ever going to be a popular author or even break successfully into writing business.

I am trying to keep positive and allow the Law of Attraction to bring success and fortune to me but it is hard.

Hopefully tomorrow the Muse will speak to me and allow creativity to flow!!

Good night everyone

Where Have All The Manners Gone

Yesterday I was reminded of the difference in generations and the manners or lack of manners in children.

I was in between clients and sitting at the library trying to relax as it was a chaotic day.thinking I would have at least two hours of quiet, I had slipped into the library.

I had been sadly wrong though as a group of children with their teacher had come for a library field trip.  At first, I thought it was cute as the kids were excited but their noise level inside the library increased to the point that all you could hear was their loud almost yelling voices.   What surprised me more was the teacher not teaching  the children and reinforcing the propwe decorum in a library .

I actually had to go outside to hear myself think and do my call ahead to my clients for the afternoon/early evening.

Yes I know kids get excited and it is wonderful that it is about books but there is being excited and then just being unruly. Which brings me to another point, where have all the manners gone?

I have seen children act and get away with things that my generation would never have or even dared to do as we knew the consequences of our actions would be greater than the thrill of attempting it.

When I was a child, I would never have dared to use the vulgarity that I have heard 8 year olds using. ¬†I would never have cut people off when waking or biking especially adults and seniors!’ I was raised to respect my elders and it seems like the children of today have no respect at all. ¬†Here is a sad thought, a generation of future leaders that will show no respect for their peers, parents or grand parents.

I believe that society and government are “coddling” today’s children and if we don’t set¬†the proper ground rules for courtesy, respect and morals – the future will be bleak and our leaders will be corrupt (more so than they already are)

morning

Good Morning!! It is a bright, cool and crisp morning and I am on my way to work (in between clients) on our public transit system.

Trying to make use of the dead time while going from Schumacher to Porcupine, I am fiddling with and brainstorming for my project.  Researching techniques and ideas!!

So far the depression moods have not been too low this morning, which I am always grateful for.

Onward and upward for a busy day

Teaser Quote

In honor of my good mood, the sun shining and a day where I felt flowed effortlessly!!

I am going to give a sneak peak of a quote from my project.

“Sad how the place I used to love became the place I now loathe”¬†image

Diamond of the Day

  • Brilliant sunny day
  • Cool, crisp air
  •  A job I love and clients who teach me everyday 
  • Being done early
  • Sunday Movie dates 
  • A good nights sleep