Do you know what he sees
When he looks at me?
Does he connect to the person
I have proudly become?
Does his heart still have love left?
Did his feelings for me flee?
We share the same spaces day after day
Silence fills the air and leaves no room to breath
Passing ships we pass each other by
Neither of us knowing the words we are suppose to say
Inside my heart breaks by the minute
Like a caged and lonely animal I cry
If this is all that I deserve its fine
But why does he stay with me If his heart is not in it
Intimacy is a foreign language to us now
Any touch feels so mechanical and cold
Obligation becomes the main reason he tries it seems
How I wish I could insensitive too but I don’t know how
My vows now my prison I cannot escape
I made this poor choice it is true
I hear myself say no one cares now
This is your mistake so accept your fate
I wish I could talk to the girl from so many years ago
I would make her feel special and secure
Help her see that there are so many treasures awaiting her
She would have the courage to say “no”
No to so many things that she was coaxed to do
No to the feeling that she had to conform to society’s mold
No to settling for “Mr Right Now” instead of love that is true
No would have saved her from all the hurt she went through